A cocktail of words and music
A few weeks ago, I found myself tired and awake at 2am.. distressed about where I was in life. A strong mixture of disappointment, regret and hopelessness sent me into panic.
After a chat with a friend, I found hope and comfort in these things.
Everything’s not Lost - Coldplay
These lyrics are everything.
“Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord will fulfil His promises to her,” Luke 1v45
This verse, written of Mary as she was pregnant with Jesus, annoyed me at first. How can I keep believing in His promises? I feel like God back stabbed me.
But as I thought about Mary, and the pain she went through.. socially and physically..I realise that, just as pregnancy ends with life, so do does suffering end with peace. Hope is invisible.. we dont hope for that which we can see. So there is an element of foolishness in hope, but without it we are lost.
“Better not give in to it. It takes ten times as long to put yourself back together as it does to fall apart” - Mockingjay, Finnick Odair
This is so true. But also impossible at times. However, I am learning now, that when i feel things bubbling up inside of me.. I have the power to stop them rising up and ripping me apart. I can feel them without adding fuel to the flame, and not give in to it.
Attack life - its going to kill you anyway.
